About As Hurt As I Could Possibly Be -- Valentine's Day

Before I get into the above idea, I would just like to mention Hil's appearance on the special "NBA: Read to Achieve". She was dressed in a Laker's shirt and was wearing torn jeans. She sang her song (lip-synced) "Come Clean" during the last 10 minutes of the hour-long show. This show is also airing on several networks this weekend, but only the last 10 minutes is worth watching. My grade for the show is a C, Hilary gets an A.

Now, the hurt. Valentine's Day is not a day I enjoy celebrating especially since it has been 3 years since my last serious relationship (with Tanya). For those who thought it was little Jenny from a year and half ago, go stand in the corner and think about how she treated me then you will understand. Anyway, I now feel as if my online (girl)friend is either leaving me or has left me. It has been over 2 weeks since the last time we talked online and it was over 2 weeks before that. I checked her profile and it seems that she has removed her name, age, and her online status. To add insult to injury, she changed her status from "Single, Not Looking" to "Long-Term Relationship". I bet that I am not that one! The last time I spoke with her she said she is working now and also has no time being online. However, I have seen her come online and then within a minute or two disappear. She probably makes herself invisible so that it looks like she ain't there. If I am history, I am really hurt, but then again I have been hurt before. But this time it hurts even worse since she has never meant me in person so she doesn't really know me. I am very sad at this time...

Now on a slightly different topic, I have been bombarded over the weekend by "strangers" claiming to be "Hilary" and "Britney". The weirdest conversation was when the "Hilary" stated that someone in her family was marrying someone in Britney's family and that she was online with Britney at that time, but she could divulge any details about anything. I am bothered by these posers to the extent that the go to the extreme of never letting go of their "fake" personas. Its so sad that the joke goes to far and then they disappear by saying ask me anything and when you ask them a question they can't answer, they just leave for good. I wish these posers would leave for good from everyone's life.

I will keep everyone posted in my relationship standings in the coming weeks..I really hope we can get together again very soon!!! Until next time...luv xoxo hil* (the poser)